Saturday, April 30, 2016

19 weeks and gender announcement

I can't believe it has been a month since my last super anxious post. Baby is looking great! We even found out the gender... It's a BOY!  We are so excited! Part of the reason we wanted to have another baby was that I just had this overwhelming spiritual impression that Emmett needed a brother. And there you go! You will never go wrong when following promptings you get from Heavenly Father. So far so good!

Morning sickness still rears its ugly head every now and then. The past few days have been terrible. I think the crazy bad heartburn I had with Emmett is kicking in which just makes me feel terrible every night. I'm still on all my anti-nausea/anti-vomiting meds. I tried to go off them last week. That was the worst idea. Lets just say my hubby was begging me to take them again.

We have been quite busy recently. My kids went off track this week (we have year-round school) and now it's "birthday season". We have one birthday every month starting March-August. But we skip July and this baby is due in September, so we'll see how that turns out. ;)

Amelia is now 6! She is such a big girl. We love her so much! She is spunky and determined, quiet and sensitive, curious and sneaky, and she has an amazingly beautiful and "old" soul. She accomplishes whatever she wants. (This was the girl who cut ALL her hair off when I was pregnant with Emmett because she wanted to look like Daddy!! I'll have to dig out those photos. Good times...)
She can ride her bike without training wheels. She is playing soccer and learning to read. She is a great helper with her little brother. (Almost too much sometimes...) She loves to help me cook and calls herself my sous chef. (Thanks to the movie Ratatouille for the vocab lesson!) And she's almost at the end of Kindergarten. I can't believe my sweet baby girl is growing up so fast.

Amelia's 6th Birthday! We had a "spa party". All the little girls had their nails painted and makeup done.

We have lots of fun adventures planned for while my kids are off track and before my pregnancy gets crazy and I end up hospitalized to on bedrest or both. I know, think positively, right? It may not happen, right? Every pregnancy is different, right? Well, I asked Dr M. and he said while all of that IS true, I seem to follow a pattern, so just be prepared. Oh boy. I've felt for the past few weeks that this is the calm before the storm. I pray every night that nothing happens. And while I do feel an assurance that Heavenly Father is watching over us and everything will turn out ok in the end, it's the unknown middle parts that turn on my anxiety. And I don't even have running right now to control it. So, to cope, admittedly I've been watching lots of Downton Abby. Sometimes its nice to think about other people's drama instead of your own. Especially if it is early twentieth century historical fiction/soap opera. :)

Saturday, April 16, 2016

17 weeks & Stress

I'm just going to start off by saying thank goodness its Friday. This week has been really hard! I completely overdid it trying to clean and then celebrate the hubs birthday. Then I didn't order my med refill in enough time and was unmedicated for about 36 hours which ended in a marathon puke-fest and an emotional break down. The good news is the meds really are helping and I know that now, and the crying made me feel better. Apparently its been a little stressful around here!!! I'm also getting some crazy heartburn that Pepcid just isn't even coming close to touching. I am going to see Dr. M on Monday and I'm hoping he can give me something else. Also I'm 17 weeks!

17 weeks (please ignore the dirty mirror!)

And for some crazy reason (her class is doing a dance performance) even though my 5 yr old is afternoon Kindergarten, she has to go to the morning class 3 days next week! Its just frustrating because I had appointments scheduled weeks in advance on 2 of the 3 days. I  scheduled them on purpose thinking she'd be at school. Nope. I had to not only find a sitter for Emmett, but find someone to pick up Amelia from school and then keep her until I get back. And of course both appointments are an hour away. And the school only sent home a notice yesterday. - the Thursday before. Ugh. I figured it out, but it was craziness yesterday.

Poor Emmett is teething too. So he's been following me around whiny and grumpy. Which is just not like him at all. He is just such a happy and mellow kid usually. And every time I have to lay down (which is quite a bit because did I mention not only am I battling regular pregnancy fatigue, but a side effect of 2 of my meds is fatigue? True story!) he starts yelling, "no mommy!" over and over and over again because he wants me to walk around holding him all day. Poor kid. Charlotte has been so good playing with him and holding him and distracting him. And fortunately for me, he usually takes a 2-3 hr nap right after Amelia goes to school, so usually I take a nap then too. So I do get help and breaks.

Speaking of help and breaks, Jorge is amazing! He has always been one to jump in and help, but this pregnancy he's been amazing. He was in a different department/position at work when I was pregnant with Emmett so he wasn't around much. He travelled for work a TON and so friends from church basically helped me survive. And Jorge's brother had just moved close to us so he helped a ton too. But because Jorge wasn't around much, I was a little worried he'd feel overwhelmed by this pregnancy and how much he'd have to do. But I don't know why I was worried! He has been a rock star! There have been no judgements. Only kindness and help and patience. He's the best. I knew there was a reason I married him!

Monday, April 4, 2016

15 weeks and feeling anxious

I am 15 w2d. Its been 3 weeks since I've had a checkup and I'm feeling anxious. I know for "normal" women its no big deal to go this long in between appointments. But for me, it causes so much anxiety. I see the Perinatoogist on Wednesday morning. I really have no reason to think the worst except my past experience, but I'm still freaking out. Jorge gave me a blessing last night and I felt such a strong peaceful feeling that everything is OK. I'm trying to hold on to that feeling. I think I'll make sure my appointments aren't so far apart next time.

15 weeks

In other news I am struggling with my wardrobe. I lost 60 lbs after I had Emmett so none of the maternity clothes I wore with him fit. I have an awesome girlfriend who gave me all her maternity clothes, but not all of it fits me even though its my size. You know how that is. We are just different body shapes. But there are a few basics that fit and I'm so completely grateful for them. I can't imagine investing in another wardrobe I'll only wear for a few more months -especially since this is absolutely our last baby. But seriously! Why do the makers of maternity wear think women who are pregnant want everyone to see their larger than life boobs & thighs? Maybe some women want to show off the extra weight gain, but I sure don't! I tried to find an Easter dress and EVERY dress I tried on (at like 4 different stores) barely came mid-thigh.  Boo.