Monday, May 23, 2016

22 Weeks

I'm now 22 weeks and 2 days. I had my appointment last week with Dr. M and it wasn't good. My cervix shortened even more. He really freaked me out talking about the risks of preterm labor and a short cervix. I'm still on meds to stop the contractions and now I'm on modified bedrest - which is really hard having 3 kids to take care of! But my girls are a huge help with Emmett. Emmett still doesn't like that I have to be in bed so much, but we have discovered he will sit for about 20 minutes snuggling with me if I turn on "Mater" (from Disney's Cars). Its not ideal of course, but it works for now. I'm really fortunate to have my sister-in-law so close by too. She's been helping watch the kids when I go to appointments - which I think will probably be every week from here until delivery - whenever that may be. Right now we are hoping to make it to 24 weeks - the magic week of viability.

22 weeks (and I still have a dirty mirror!) 

Our home teacher came over last night and helped Jorge give me a blessing. I really feel at peace knowing everything will be fine with the baby, but I don't know if that means he will be born early or not. As my Dr said, there is no predictable pattern with preterm labor. And just because it's worked out in the past, doesn't mean it will this time. I'm just trying to have faith that its all in Heavenly Father's hands and not matter how it turns out, it will be ok.

So even thought I have to rest a lot, I'm trying to keep busy. I've decided to start a project I've been putting off for lack of time. I felt at the beginning of the year that I really want/need to focus more on getting to know the character of Jesus Christ. I started reading Jesus the Christ by James E Talmadge.  I want to put together a book complete with photos about the life and character of Christ for my kids as a Christmas present. Maybe it seems a little cheesy, but I really want them to know my testimony about Christ, who He is and His goodness towards all mankind. Hopefully it all comes together! I might share bits of inspiration I discover along the way. Now I'm off to rest some more while my kids watch too much TV. Oi! This too shall pass.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

21 weeks and the drama begins...

Today I hit 21 weeks! I'm feeling this little boy kicking more and more. I'm also gaining more and more weight. This pregnancy has been hands down different than my previous pregnancies - in a great way! Yes, I was still diagnosed with Hyperemesis, but the medications have made all the difference. (I talked in depth about them in this post.) I am grateful for the meds! But I have to admit it is messing with my mind a little bit. I usually lose over 10% of my body weight in the first trimester. And by this point, I am usually still struggling to gain back all the weight I lost. Then I go on to only gain a little bit - like 12 lbs with Amelia, 17lbs with Charlotte and 24lbs with Emmett. But this time around I have gained 17 lbs and the scale will continue to climb, I am sure. I know this is completely normal. I know its healthy - especially since I started this pregnancy the lowest I have ever weighed and the healthiest I have ever been. But having lost 60 lbs after I gave birth to Emmett, there is a certain amount of anxiety everytime I step on that scale. Ugh. I know, I'm being dramatic. But its my reality. Below are before & after photos:

On to other news...

I have had preterm labor/short cervix issues in all of my previous pregnancies (that resulted in a take-home baby). I knew the day was coming. But since this pregnancy had been so different, I think I allowed myself a bit of a false sense of security. I had been cramping a little bit starting around 19 or so weeks, but once I hit 20 weeks the cramping really ramped up. And so I went to my appointment with Dr. M. this week and my cervix has shortened. I'm having actual contractions (versus Braxton Hicks) that are changing my cervix. I was put on meds to stop the contractions and told to "take it easy". I go back next week to see how my cervix is and hopefully it has stabilized. I knew this was coming, but it doesn't make it any easier.